Staying Mum

A recent survey by Mumsnet shows that childcare is a big barrier in mums either returning to work, or taking on more hours. I hear solutions offered, such as Labour’s free wrap around school care from 8 until 6. Now I am certainly not about to tell you that it is wrong to offer that, or to need childcare hours of that length. But for me personally, and many other parents out there, I don’t want my young child in someone else’s care for ten hours a day. I want to do it. There. I said it. I like being a stay at home mum. My youngest is only two currently, and there is every likelihood that I will return to work when he is at school. But I won’t want to. At least not on a full time basis. I want to collect him from the school gates. I want to be there the days he is sick, I want to be there, for him and my older children, in the school holidays.

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It is hard not to feel a little peeved when childcare costs are discussed and within those talks it is taken that stay at home parents don’t have them. We do, it is at the cost of an entire income, and we cannot claim 70% of that back through the tax credit system (which I am not suggesting we should be able to, but it would be nice if it was at least recognised that there is a financial implication.) I do accept that, at least in my case, it is partly a lifestyle choice, as well as a practical solution. We chose for me to be at home versus holidays and a bigger house.We chose for me to be at home as opposed to currently pursuing my career.

It works for us. I know it isn’t for everyone. And I do not wish to denigrate anyone else’s choices in the least- I have ‘each to their own’ written through me like a moral stick of seaside rock. It is a very individual decision as to what best suits you and your family and your own personal circumstances. And my choice is based on personal experience. When my eldest was 21 months old I returned to full time work, and ran myself ragged by starting my work day at seven am, so that I could leave work on time yet still be seen to have done the expected 9 hour day, then I rushed home and tried to squeeze crafting and fun, as well as dinner and bathtime, into the two hour Mum window I had before bedtime. I wasn’t happy. I missed being with her. I resented my job for taking me away. I worked hard, was good at my job, liked my job, but I was unhappy, and that unhappiness was in part responsible for my making different choices with my other two children.

I admire working mums. I do a little freelance work that I squeeze in round the edges of family life. Take this morning for example. I got up early to watch the news in preparation for the call from my editor to discuss topics for my column for the Mirror this week. But the toddler woke up two minutes later, meaning there is every chance my piece this week will be about the lax attitude of Postman Pat re the handover of a special delivery item. It is hard trying to fit everything in to the week without adding in 40 hours of work. I doff my imaginary hat to those of you who manage it.

I think we need more than childcare solutions, we need better flexible working options, more jobs offering term time contracts where possible, and don’t even get me started on the fact that the jobs that are easiest to fit round your family are often the lowest paid. We need recognition from employers that fathers are parents too, and therefore some of the assumption that the burden falls to the mother will be lessened.

In an ideal world, should I return to proper employment when my son starts school in two years time, my partner and I would like it if we could both manage a couple of shorter days in order that 2 or 3 days a week one of us picks him up, with the slack being picked up by after school care of some kind. Yet from the experience of men I know, employers look even less kindly on a man asking for flexible working for childcare purposes than a woman asking for the same thing. It is as if there is still a myth that they are somehow less of a man if they wish to undertake traditionally female roles. While this attitude perpetuates it will remain harder for women. Sometimes fighting for women rights means fighting for men’s rights too.

We also need to respect the choice of stay at home parents, as opposed to assuming we are somehow lazy or aspiration less. I have aspirations, and sometimes they don’t even include biscuits. While aware that choosing to be at home in the pre-school years will have a knock on effect on my earning potential, I also believe it is only a few years out of a lifetime of work, and if I was someone with a determined nature and a career path in mind, it is still possible to fulfil your potential even with a break.

I know the last bit is true because I have my Mum as a role model. She left her career for 15 years when we were young. She did have a part time job in a supermarket in the evenings to make ends meet, but she stepped off the career ladder for well over a decade. Then at forty she was brave enough to go back. Her work field, computer programming, had of course leaped on without her in the intervening years, so she started again at the bottom, as a trainee. She did well, and she did well fast. Because she worked hard and was good at it, and was dedicated. By the time she retired she was at the top of her game and on an excellent wage.

A break doesn’t have to mean you can’t succeed. A flexible approach to work during the child rearing years shouldn’t mean you can’t succeed. And who says raising brilliant children to adulthood isn’t full of it’s own rewards and successes anyway?

I don’t often write about being a stay at home parent, staying mum on the topic if you like! I don’t feel the need to defend a personal decision against the implication that I am letting myself and feminism down. I also find it leads to being accused of being ‘smug’ or implying that I am somehow better than a working mum. I am not smug, I am not better than anyone. I am just being the person I want to be within the framework of my family and what works best for us. It is just my personal choice, not a statement on anything wider than that, and has no more say on what you do with your life than me telling you what my preference in pants style is. Big granny ones if you are interested, but I will defend your right to choose to wear a thong.

I read some of the hoo ha about the piece written by an American blogger on why she feels sorry for stay at home mums. Part of her argument seems to be ‘you will never excel at anything if you have kids’. I disagree. You can excel at anything you like still, and that includes excelling at child raising. My other disagreement with her is that not everyone is driven to excel. I am not, I am driven by the desire for happiness, not for validation through my job or wage packet or plaudits from peers. I just don’t have the ambition gene. Or the competitive one. And I can’t be the only one surely? I will stand up for any woman’s right to be able to break a glass ceiling, but I have no urge to be shattering any soon myself. I am in pursuit of contentment, and for me that can so often be found in the small things.

And to continue that pursuit I am off to feed the ducks with my small chap. High powered? No. High paid? No. Happy? Yes.

Love Miss Cisco XXX




  1. sierralima
    January 28, 2014 / 8:56 am

    Returning to part time work when my son was 21 months was hugely stressful. Getting us both out of the door by 715 and running the household was too much. I ‘choose’ to stay at home for an easier life but I miss my job and being a professional.
    There needs to be a solution.

  2. sierralima
    January 28, 2014 / 8:56 am

    Returning to part time work when my son was 21 months was hugely stressful. Getting us both out of the door by 715 and running the household was too much. I ‘choose’ to stay at home for an easier life but I miss my job and being a professional.
    There needs to be a solution.

  3. January 28, 2014 / 8:57 am


    I can’t work (in the traditional sense at least). My illness doesn’t allow me to. One day I can manage walking short distances, the next it can take all of my energy and all of my painkillers to get from my bed to the bathroom (and the bathroom is directly opposite my bedroom). But here is the thing, mostly I LIKE not working at the moment. I LIKE being around for Harry and if I am completely honest, the last 18 months would have been awful for him if I was working as well. Add into the fact that when I returned to work after my maternity leave ended was when I was at my very worst mentally (I had 7 months off sick in the year before I was made redundant), working (full time at least) simply doesn’t make me or my family happily, at least it didn’t then.

    Great post.

  4. January 28, 2014 / 10:20 am

    I do sometimes miss being a computer programmer. I do not understand why, when we now have the technology to support hot desks, or hot offices, remote working, flexible working and so on, more companies aren’t leaping at the chance to retain expertise. Why is the choice so often between full time in an office or nothing at all? Where is the imaginative solution that allows me to parent *and* work? It’s only there if I create the job for myself by freelancing, and tbh, I’m fairly awful at that. I just don’t sell myself well.

    Great post, as ever.

  5. Nikki Thomas
    January 28, 2014 / 1:05 pm

    Such a great post Sonya and yes you should be able to admit to loving being a stay at home mum, why not? It is a very important job. I miss it. I only work part time but it makes me stressed out and I am always thinking about school and lessons and the marking I haven’t done. This has a knock on effect with my mood with the children and I resent that. I’m lucky that I still do school runs but sick days are tricky as I have to take time off and I am already sweating about Ted days next term. I want to go back to being a SAHM as I was poorer but definitely a better mum.

  6. January 28, 2014 / 1:17 pm

    I think I read the exact same American blog. Made me so angry I didn’t RT it. As you well know I currently work a 30 hour week but haven’t been happy with my lifestyle and we’ve recently decided to move to the country as well. I’m hoping to somehow squeeze my working week into 3 days and get a further day off (I currently have Friday off) so that I can spend time with The Monster before he goes to school. I’ve also recently approached our company Forum members to raise home working on the agenda this month. Our company is dead against it, but if I can be there for pick ups, drops offs or be less stressed going to the after school club, they would reap the benefits for that.

  7. January 28, 2014 / 4:00 pm

    I’ve always been a stay at home mum and that’s always been my choice. Now that Kitty and Ozzy are at school that won’t change, I have no desire whatsoever to ‘get a proper job’, I am a professional loafer, just these days I prefer to do the loafing online 😉

  8. SarahMummy
    January 28, 2014 / 6:43 pm

    Great post – enjoy that duck feeding! I went back to work full-time when my eldest was 6 months old – he was in nursery 8-6 three days a week and with my mum for two days a week. I went down to three days a week when I had my younger son, but both he and his sister were in nursery 8-6 from age 6 months. Do I regret it? No. Is it right for everyone? No. Am I ready to take things easier now? Yes. I want to be there to take them to school and pick them up while I still can, so I’m going freelance! Who knows how it will go…

  9. Looking for Blue Sky
    January 28, 2014 / 8:02 pm

    I’ve always worked apart from the odd break due to unemployment or having a very sick preemie baby, but most of it was part time, and I’ve been very lucky with my employers. But like you I believe that it’s all about choices and values (and should have nothing to do with feminism). Every family should have the choice to do what is right for them. The reason they often don’t have that choice? Children and their needs are not valued enough by society, at least that is what I believe xx

  10. Crafts on Sea
    January 28, 2014 / 10:48 pm

    Sonya, this is one if my favourite blog posts that I have ever read. Ever. Especially the bit about each to their own, I could have that tattooed across my chest I think 🙂 x

  11. Helen Wills
    January 31, 2014 / 1:11 pm

    I totally agree with the ‘career break’ not meaning an end to your career or earnings potential. I’ve long been an advocate of the model which says there is no such thing as a job for life, or a single career – for anyone, not just women. Graduates these days realise this, and Portfolio working is becoming not only a good balanced way of earning money, but a necessity given the lack of traditional work in this economy.

    I too am gradually building a new career, with flexibility around my children. I was driven before I had kids, and did break a glass ceiling, but I couldn’t do justice to that job and my children both at the same time, so I chose to move on. I am still driven – that’s personality, not career ambition – and when children cease to want my time in the same way, I have no doubt that my work will fill it in equal measure. And when it does, the sky is the limit, if I choose for it to be.
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  12. February 1, 2014 / 10:54 am

    I work part time and love my job (well, mostly. I hate it this week!) and I have a kind of ok balance in that we have two good days we can play and do all sorts together and be mummy and son and then 3 days where I work. I think it’s going to get more challenging when he starts school etc because I know I’ll want to pick him up and drop him off. Maybe I’ll try changing my hours or maybe that’ll be the time for me to have a career break.

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