When I started this blog, on a whim – just over three years ago, I used to write anything that was in my head. I didn’t over think it, or worry about stats or whether anyone was even reading it. It was just a way of keeping myself company while at home with a young baby.
Then people did read it, so I worked harder on my writing and for a while I was proud of it. Lately though I have found a lack of time, and a degree of self consciousness means I write less, both in terms of quantity and quality. I no longer feel as proud of the majority of my posts. My third year of writing is proving to be like that oh so tricky third album for musical types.
I don’t write as spontaneously as I once did and often find the inspiration well dry. I start to question whether it is interesting, or well written. I miss the days when it just tripped from brain to page of its own accord.
Before this starts sounding all woe is me, and that I require comments reassuring me that my writing is fine or good or whatevs, this is actually leading somewhere a bit more positive – honestly!
I am dreading Syd starting school and spending my days without my little sidekick, but the one good thing about it will be time. And I want to use that time positively, to get back to writing in a way I love and to improve on whatever natural talent I may have.
Who knows – maybe I do have a book in me (though I am inclined to believe a witty 500 word piece is more my forte!). I have never tried writing fiction, but I read this article with tips on how to be a writer in the digital age the other day and it really got me thinking about joining in NaNoWriMo when it comes around this year – just to see what comes out of my head!
I also liked the idea of working collaboratively – either writing with someone else or joining in more with prompts – something I did a lot in my early blogging days, always enjoying the challenge of taking an idea and running with it.
I have notebooks packed with snippets of things seen or heard – wisps of inspiration that I have no time to follow currently, but perhaps having those school hours free will let me chase them through the trees to see where they lead – maybe somewhere magical. Or maybe I will just be lost in the forest, but some of the best stories happen to those who are lost, so even that isn’t a bad thing!
So I am not looking forward to Syd starting school, but the silver lining may just be the chance to track down that inspiration fairy and get back to being proud of what I do! Fellow bloggers, how do you pick yourself up when you feel you have lost you sparkle a little?
Love Miss Cisco XXX
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