Sometimes I Am Lost For Words….

When I started this blog, on a whim – just over three years ago, I used to write anything that was in my head. I didn’t over think it, or worry about stats or whether anyone was even reading it. It was just a way of keeping myself company while at home with a young baby.

 

sometimes I am lost for words

 

Then people did read it, so I worked harder on my writing and for a while I was proud of it. Lately though I have found a lack of time, and a degree of self consciousness means I write less, both in terms of quantity and quality. I no longer feel as proud of the majority of my posts. My third year of writing is proving to be like that oh so tricky third album for musical types.

I don’t write as spontaneously as I once did and often find the inspiration well dry. I start to question whether it is interesting, or well written. I miss the days when it just tripped from brain to page of its own accord.

Before this starts sounding all woe is me, and that I require comments reassuring me that my writing is fine or good or whatevs, this is actually leading somewhere a bit more positive – honestly!

I am dreading Syd starting school and spending my days without my little sidekick, but the one good thing about it will be time. And I want to use that time positively, to get back to writing in a way I love and to improve on whatever natural talent I may have.

Who knows – maybe I do have a book in me (though I am inclined to believe a witty 500 word piece is more my forte!). I have never tried writing fiction, but I read this article with tips on how to be a writer in the digital age the other day and it really got me thinking about joining in NaNoWriMo when it comes around this year – just to see what comes out of my head!

I also liked the idea of working collaboratively – either writing with someone else or joining in more with prompts – something I did a lot in my early blogging days, always enjoying the challenge of taking an idea and running with it.

I have notebooks packed with snippets of things seen or heard – wisps of inspiration that I have no time to follow currently, but perhaps having those school hours free will let me chase them through the trees to see where they lead – maybe somewhere magical. Or maybe I will just be lost in the forest, but some of the best stories happen to those who are lost, so even that isn’t a bad thing!

So I am not looking forward to Syd starting school, but the silver lining may just be the chance to track down that inspiration fairy and get back to being proud of what I do! Fellow bloggers, how do you pick yourself up when you feel you have lost you sparkle a little?

Love Miss Cisco XXX

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  1. May 6, 2015 / 9:23 am

    Oh I am so with you. I have the notebooks with ideas and two or three book ideas in my head and even though A has gone to school, I don’t seem to find the time to write. I did try Nanowrimo last year but life got in the way. I will try again this year definitely
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  2. May 6, 2015 / 10:04 am

    I hear what you’re saying – we all flag at times, question what we are writing, need inspiration. Since I have started writing a column for our local paper the enforced deadline certainly sharpens the mind and I have amazed myself that I have come up with something each week – some better than others! However my blog has suffered as the column takes precedence, so that worries me.
    Do you still do your newspaper articles?
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    • May 6, 2015 / 11:12 am

      Sadly not – I did about 3 before a new management team cancelled all the previous managements new initiatives! But have to say managing to find something new to write each week scared me – so kudos to you for managing it!

  3. May 6, 2015 / 12:10 pm

    I love writing in notebooks, I find that easier than writing on a PC. As for what do I do when it all becomes a bit much? Have a break, ignore things, and I usually find it comes back! 🙂 x
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  4. May 6, 2015 / 1:22 pm

    I think this comes to us all at points. I have over 70 posts I have started but find it so difficult to actually turn these brief notes in to something people may like to read. Perhaps a break before Syd starts school may be what you need. Spend this time enjoying life and hopefully that will get the old mojo back.
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  5. May 6, 2015 / 2:55 pm

    I hear you Sonya! I do a lot of ghost writing and it was beginning to worry me that more time was being given to other people’s voices than my own (which is easy to do when the other voices are paying….). I swing between Emma’s advice of leaving everything for a while as something always bubbles up, and forcing myself to write at least a draft every day until something hits the mark. At least you have all your notebooks – looking forward to a blizzard of posts when your youngest starts school!
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  6. May 6, 2015 / 4:26 pm

    I find taking a break works, visiting new places or spending an evening ‘blogroll hopping’ – jumping through to peoples recommended reads always unearths some gems to inspire.
    You could always come and join us over at Folklings if you want to go down the collaborative route 😉
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  7. May 6, 2015 / 6:30 pm

    Sounds like you need a break honey…. then you can come back to it nice and fresh. And yes! yes! yes! to writing fiction – I can highly recommend it! X …. and Nanowrimo is a good place to start too – it certainly give you a kick start :o).
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  8. May 7, 2015 / 7:37 am

    This is definitely something I struggle with too, there are days when it seems like everything in want to write has already been written about at length by every other blogger and my inspiration definitely has peaks and troughs. My blog has never really fitted into any niche and while that can be a bit annoying, come awards season, I like the fact that it also gives me freedom to write almost whatever I want.

    Keep up the good work, Miss Cisco!

  9. May 7, 2015 / 9:11 am

    I did Nnnowrimo the year before last and got a full first draft out of it. It was full on but brilliant. Of course the draft is still sitting in a drawer gathering dust but one day…
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  10. May 7, 2015 / 11:31 am

    Yes! I totally hit the three year itch too, although my blog has just turned 4 and I have to say I came out the other side of the itchy stage much happier than I’d been before. I blog far less frequently than i used to, but in a way it’s very liberating to reach the place where you genuinely only write when you want to and feel like you have something to say, rather than trying to blog with a certain frequency to be in the running for stats and rankings. You’re such a super duper talent lovely, I hope you get through this patch nice and quickly! xx
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  11. May 7, 2015 / 8:39 pm

    I know how you feel, I was never the best writer, but so many friends and family now read my blog, I do feel that there are lots of things I just can’t mention.

    Good luck getting your mojo back. I have missed my little sidekick awfully this year, but it is nice to have a bit more time.
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  12. May 9, 2015 / 8:03 pm

    I’m the same, whilst a part of me doesn’t want to see my baby start school (not this sept but next) there’s quite a lot I want to do that I can’t wait to have time to pursue! Xx
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