It has been a bit quiet on this here blog the past few weeks. The summer holidays make it hard to find time to think, let alone write. My house is in need of a jolly good clean and my purse is as empty as my food cupboards, yet still I feel a sense of dread about September.
They may drive me crazy but I love my kids being home. And soon the house will be quiet.
My middle one will reluctantly trudge back to school. He doesn’t like it a whole lot, and I know his face will be a little sadder, a little more anxious as the new term kicks in.
The youngest starts school properly. While I have cherished the 6 hours a week peace afforded me by pre-school, that has been enough for me. I will miss him when he goes full-time. And while I am busy jollying him along about how much fun he is going to have, he is just telling me he is ‘never going to school’ and how he wishes he was still ‘3’. He will settle in, I know. There were tears on his taster day, but he came out smiling, and I know that it will be just the same in a couple of weeks time. It took a long year before he stopped crying at pre-school drop offs, and though he always came out having had a lovely time, I dreaded those mornings of peeling him off me while he sobbed – let’s hope school is an easier transition eh!
And my eldest is flying the nest to university. Which is going to be terribly odd. I am going to miss her, if not the mouldy cups and mess she surrounds herself with. Nineteen years I have shared my life with her, and while I know I still will be part of her life, it will be strange not having her under my roof. Who will steal all my clean socks and only return them singly? Who will fill the house with loud singing and her particular brand of silliness? Who will hug me while smugly enjoying that they are taller than me now?
It will be a quieter house in September. I will miss them all while they are in their various places of education. But perhaps in that quiet I may rediscover a little bit more of me? That may just be the silver lining.
Love Miss Cisco XXX