As the end of term is on the horizon, (thank goodness), I have been having a little think about how this first term has gone.
Syd is doing really well at school. I don’t know, or really care, how he is doing on a government chart, but I do know he is happy. I was quite worried about him starting school, he only turned 4 in the middle of August and I did feel he was a bit little for it.
Initially I had considered taking up the schools offer of half days until half term, but nobody else was – and I decided that it wouldn’t do him any favours to pull him out at lunchtimes when everyone else was staying for the day, fearing he would miss out on bonding time and be made to stand out in the class. And actually, bar a very tired first week, he has been fine. My hopes that it would finally lead to him going to sleep at a normal time for a child his age were crushed, he is still generally awake until ten and I am going to have to accept that is just who he is rather than stress about it!
He has good friends, although they do seem to base most communication on bouncing off walls and making crazy noises, but it makes them laugh! His teacher is just brilliant – by parents evening just after half term – she had totally nailed his personality. And his teaching assistant is just as awesome – when she realised he wanted to sit with me during the nativity, she invented a ‘bell ringer’ role just for him, so he could sit at the front with me and still take part. Am looking forward to seeing the show on Friday.
He has started to learn to read – just the simple books, ‘Big, Fat Rat’ being our latest – and it is a joy to see him sounding out words and starting to sight read the easy ones. I love reading and it is so exciting watching him open up a whole new world for himself.
We have even nailed mornings the last few weeks. The first half term was hard, despite enjoying school itself, he found me leaving hard and there were often tears (tho always smiles and tales of a happy day at pick up time), but the last 4 weeks he skips in happily and that makes me happy too.
So yeah, Syd has got school sorted – he is happy and thriving, proving my fears he was too young to be misplaced!
There was another first term in the house too – Betsy went up to Manchester to university in September, and like Syd she is thriving. Obvs I have no idea whether she is doing well at the actual work bit, no open evenings for me anymore, but she has made good friends and is loving the city she lives in.
She has been learning to cook some of her favourites – it’s not so much that I never taught her anything, more that I am vegetarian and she is not, so she is on her own when creating her own versions of Nandos and chillis with real beef mince!
She is happily traversing the country solo to get home for the odd visit and end of term, well, I say happily, obviously it is hugely dull being on a train for that many hours, but she is not daunted by it all. My independent girl is growing in confidence and it is lovely to see, though I am much looking forward to having her home for three weeks at Christmas.
I should briefly mention my middle boy here, my much loved and under mentioned Max – no firsts for him, but a third year in his middle school. He is doing really well there, happy, bright and this term has even seen him start to enjoy PE – who knew that would ever happen!!
And me. How have I coped with this term of firsts? Um. Well a bit badly in all honesty. I hesitate to use the word ‘depressed’ as I know many who suffer awfully with that dreadful illness, but I have certainly been blue. I missed my baby while he was at school and I found my daughter moving away far more of a wrench than I imagined, and I imagined it wasn’t going to be much fun.
I have felt a bit redundant and a bit lost and a bit lonely. I have been soul searching for what to do with my life that has been centred around my children for so long. And I don’t yet have the answers, but I have felt my mood lightning the past few weeks as I start to get used to the changes, I am still not quite sure where I am heading, but I feel a little less bereft and a little more positive as time goes on. New year will see me put some things into place that focus on me, an OU course and some new ideas to get me back focused on blogging here a little more regularly again.
But first, Christmas, a much needed break for us all and some much missed family time. I am getting what I want for Christmas this year, all three of my babies under my roof again!
How has this term been for you?
Love Miss Cisco XXX